I always have a hard time trying to imagine myself and where I’m at in life in the future, because I’m a very spontaneous person and I tend to just go with the flow. But for some reason, lately I can’t get the image of myself living in Chicago a few years down the road out of my head. I can imagine myself hopping off the train after a day at work and meeting a friend in the city for some coffee or a bubble tea. I imagine myself wearing blazers and heels and with shorter hair; more mature. I imagine myself having new friends whether I met them on a night out or at work. I see myself stopping at a food stand downtown to get a bite to eat while shopping on michicagn avenue. I picture Monday mornings on the busy street trying to hale a taxi so I’m not late for work and summer days in big floppy hats that are spent on north avenue beach. I picture myself with a guy that I met while living in the city and he opens doors for me and knows my coffee order by heart. I’m not sure how reasonable it all is at this point in my life, but I know it’s what I want. I was just saying that I feel like I have nothing to look forward to in my life right now, but maybe this is it. My overall goal is just to be happy. But I think this one might be 2nd. Even if just parts of it come true, I’ll be happy. I’ve never felt like I belonged where I grew up. As much as I love my college town, sometimes I still feel like I don’t belong here either. But there’s something about Chicago that I’ve always loved. Even though most of it is foreign to me, it doesn’t always feel that way. I truly feel like I could live there and be happy.
Goal #1 is to be happy. And #2 is to find somewhere that I feel I truly belong.
As I’m starting my senior year of college, my future and what I’m actually going to do with my life have both been something that I’ve been thinking about all of the time lately. Ideally, this is what my life in 10 years would look like:
In 10 years, I’ll be 32. I hope to be living in another city, probably Chicago, and to have a nice apartment with high ceilings and walls that are full windows overlooking the city. Hopefully by that time I will be engaged or at least have a serious boyfriend. Although, I do not see myself being married or having children by that point. I hope that whatever job I find after college, that I’m successful enough in it to be able to travel when I want and to afford a moderate lifestyle in the city.
This post is a little challenging for me, because although the future is something that I think about A LOT, I still don’t know exactly what I want out of it. I think that what happens in my life in the next year or two will definitely determine a lot of that for me. In the past 6 months or so, I’ve grown a lot as a person, and everything that I thought that I wanted for myself has changed. Like I said in the last post, I’m trying to go with the flow at this point in my life. I want to take enough chances so that I don’t miss out on any opportunities, but I’m also not trying to plan too far ahead. So when I’m asked, “where do you want to be in 10 years?,” I guess I would just have to say I don’t really know. I have a general idea of the details like I listed above, but overall, in 10 years I just want to be happy. I want to have my life a lot more figured out than I do now, and I want to be spending my time with people that I love. I want how I’m going to pay my rent or my bills to be the last of my worries and just living my life day to day how I please to be my main concern.
I honestly have no idea where it stemmed from, but I have an obsession with apartments and hotel rooms with views like this. After I graduate college and start my career, I have no idea where I’ll end up. I just know that I do not want to go back to Indy. I want to be emerged in a city, preferably a big one, where I don’t know many people and will have the opportunity to create a new name for myself. A clean start. When it comes to where, I’m keeping an open mind and am just seeing where life takes me. However, there is one requirement that I want for my future life. As weird as it may sound, I want to end up in an apartment with huge windows and a nice view like one of these overlooking a city. I know that I won’t be able to afford it right away, but it’s a big goal that I intend to accomplish at least by the time I’m 25 or 26. I want to wake up in the morning and be greeted by sunlight coming through my window overlooking a huge buzzing city. I want to look out and see hundreds of people going about their lives and be high up enough for no one to even be able to acknowledge me. The idea of being in a huge city, but also being able to overlook everything from a distance while being on my own. There’s just something about the thought of it that I love.