I always have a hard time trying to imagine myself and where I’m at in life in the future, because I’m a very spontaneous person and I tend to just go with the flow. But for some reason, lately I can’t get the image of myself living in Chicago a few years down the road out of my head. I can imagine myself hopping off the train after a day at work and meeting a friend in the city for some coffee or a bubble tea. I imagine myself wearing blazers and heels and with shorter hair; more mature. I imagine myself having new friends whether I met them on a night out or at work. I see myself stopping at a food stand downtown to get a bite to eat while shopping on michicagn avenue. I picture Monday mornings on the busy street trying to hale a taxi so I’m not late for work and summer days in big floppy hats that are spent on north avenue beach. I picture myself with a guy that I met while living in the city and he opens doors for me and knows my coffee order by heart. I’m not sure how reasonable it all is at this point in my life, but I know it’s what I want. I was just saying that I feel like I have nothing to look forward to in my life right now, but maybe this is it. My overall goal is just to be happy. But I think this one might be 2nd. Even if just parts of it come true, I’ll be happy. I’ve never felt like I belonged where I grew up. As much as I love my college town, sometimes I still feel like I don’t belong here either. But there’s something about Chicago that I’ve always loved. Even though most of it is foreign to me, it doesn’t always feel that way. I truly feel like I could live there and be happy.
Goal #1 is to be happy. And #2 is to find somewhere that I feel I truly belong.